Absolute failure.

Well, I think it would be an understatement to say how badly I fucked up yesterday. I was doing really well, had 1/4 cup of cereal for breakfast and then filled myself up with water. 

Then it was dinner. Its so, so hard living with my parents who force me to eat huge, fattening dinners. I had grilled chicken with potatoes and tomato and mozarella - eugh. 

I worked out in my room for ages afterwards, crunches, sit-ups etc but I still feel like I haven't done enough. 

So today I'm going to restrict, restrict, restrict as my parents will be out for dinner, leaving me something to heat up... what they don't know can't hurt them. 

Weighed myself this morning and surprisingly I'm down to 142 lbs! I'm wondering when this weekends weakness will catch up with me. 

Anyway, I might blog later (who knows if anyone is actually reading this).

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So here it goes.

I'm just a girl who needs somewhere to get across her feelings. As much as I want to talk to my "friends" I can't.

I'm controlled by wanting to be thin. 

That is all there is to it. I'm not trying to tell people to be anorexic, believe me it is hell. I just want to try and create a place where people can come together. 

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